Renezuo

So I know not everyone cares to hear my personal nonsense, which is fine, and I generally stay pretty good about keeping my day to day nonsense of off my account here. But at this point things are boiling over.

So tharlossnowthorne (Over at DeviantArt) was a friend I made in high school, and she always used to give me this shit about friendship and all that. When her parents came down on her for slacking off and were talkin bout kicking her out, I was in the market for a room mate. I wanted to go with someone I knew as opposed to picking someone at random. I'd not had good luck with that. I had also believed whole heartedly that the girl really needed to get out of her house. The stories of verbal and physical abuse at the hands of her family, and the cinderella tale it seemed to be at home had me constantly ticked off. I was always on her to move out, and this time I got her to move in with me, she came Oregon to live out here in Boston, that was last August.

She didn't have a lot of startup capitol, which was fine, I was willing to front that to help her out. I paid 1400 dollars plus the cost of her plane ticket right out of the gate to get her here. I covered the deposit and the first month's rent right away. I told her she could pay me back for it, but I wasn't terribly concerned about it, in My head if she could really strike out on her own that was worth more than the money she owed.

Less that a couple weeks later the attitude towards the whole place turned sour. She hated Boston despite never giving it a chance. Her reasons consisted of knowing nobody, having no friends, nothing to do, everything costing money and so on. She took no steps to solve these problems of her own accord, and relied on me constantly as a means of entertainment. During the school year I have very little time for anything, and the occassional time I had free was used trying to help people with the shit they had going on in their lives: IE a friend of mine who's computer decided to up and die on her. Additional time was spent doing artwork, I am absolutely obsessed with getting more practice in over the last year, I'd do anything to do it. Personal projects or commissions. When all of this stuff wasn't eating up my time I also have a girlfriend, and family that requires their own portions of attention. This wasn't good enough for her.

Somehow her family forgot they were kicking her out, and somehow Kelly forgot that she'd been the abused Black Sheep and was pining for the hills of Oregon which she talked about so much in a constantly negative tone. And it hit me around this time that the girl doesn't really ever talk to people about what she -likes- but more often about what she hates: Gays, Mexicans, Black People, Chinese People, Non Christians, and the list goes on and on. Shes a bigot, and for a while it was funny when you think it's all a joke. But when you realize that this shit is -real- with her, it gets disgusting.

Now don't get me wrong, it wasn't all bad all the time. In her own way she can be a big help around the house. She can help with art stuff when it got to be too much between school and my normal job, and she would handle most of the chores here at home. Because of this help I didn't even think to ask her for payment on the other bills; gas, electric, cable, I didn't ask for her to pay out on it. Except when she became convinced she was sick because of phantom mold under the radiator and began leaving windows open throughout the winter. Well while her room is closed up and isolated from the room where this supposed mold is, shes got the windows open, and its tripping the heat off in every OTHER room non stop. The heating bill spiked and came out to 200 dollars one month. This was the only time I up front asked for any of the money from these external bills aside from the rent.

She was taking less and less hours at work, while she insists this was due to her being blackballed by her employers, I got a feeling that the hateful talk in the work place wore thin and they kept her around only for what they absolutely needed her to cover. I got a feeling she pissed people off, offended them seriously, and hence was being told she wasn't welcome with hour cuts and not taking the hint. She refused to get a job anywhere else, but insisted on staying where she was while bitching every day about how awful it was.

This situation deteriorated quickly and arguments became much more frequent. One of which over the true ownership of the cat turned in to a fiasco. She'd been talking about moving out for some time, and it had got pretty serious when she came back from a little trip out to see her family. Well I told her perhaps the time had come for her to go before things got any worse. We agreed it was probably best and that I was going to try and get someone to sublet the room to. Despite my best efforts, no dice on my end. Everyone I lined up would flake out at the last minute, for good and bad reasons alike. And the market for this stuff has just gone right in to the toilet. Especially when we're talking about only a few months and not a full year or something like that.

Part of the agreement would be that she would be paying until I could FIND such a person. I have just receive notification that she will NOT in fact be paying. And for her to even tell me that much was like pulling hens teeth. This is the correspondence as it reads on the DeviantArt note System, keep in mind that the beginning of the conversation is at the bottom, so you have to scroll down a bit to get it from the start. The original message was in reference to her tax return check that had come here rather than being forwarded to her parents in Oregon:
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This is the end of the conversation-

You kicked me out, someone is moving in to take my place at the end of this month through the summer. Who that happens to be is none of my concern.

Any further contact will be through my attorney.

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Renezuo said the following:

Alright, I can try that and see if it works. As for the rent though, will I be seeing any money for that? I need to tell the landlord something soon.

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TharlosSnowthorne said the following:

Just put it in the mailbox with 'return to sender' on it. I'll have the federal government handle it.
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Renezuo said the following:

Just checking to see Where you want me to send the tax return check that came in? That and to see i by any chance you'll be paying in to rent this month.
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So it would seem as though I have been burned seriously, I now have a $1,400 rent due in a day that I have to pay all by myself. While I am not technically liable for this, and I could probably contest it in small claims court, Kelly will still lose her deposit....which remember... I paid. 700 dollars gone. If the landlord gets pissed he could find any reason to stick it to ME as well and MY deposit be gone, another 700 gone. In addition any court fees on top of the medical costs Im battling would -break- me. It's unclear as to whether or not I'll be able to even attend school, and I need to keep myself open and my credit pristine. My dad can't help me with this, he's been laid off with so many other people in this economy and my girlfriend is strapped for cash over a situation with her OWN apartment in maine.

So I guess it looks like I'm screwed no matter what I do. Any suggestions from anybody? Comments? Rants? I feel like I should pay it but let the landlord know that shes still bailed on the lease. She talks a big game about going back to school and finally taking out a loan, well with her credit tanked from fucking up a lease, she won't get that loan. Which comes with its own satisfaction for me but doesn't really -help- me at all.

The other part of it is.... well my last relationship, and even a friendship I had with two other people went up in flames because of a lot of "he said, she said" style shit, and she had been the one to "back me" and I took her word on things. But I wonder how much of this stuff was legit, how much was her and how much were these other people? I went to bat for her seemingly being innocent and said some awful things in defense of "my friend", when in reality.... it seems as though she's not as innocent as I'd thought back then. How many people have I got in to hot water with over something SHE had actually been perpetuating behind my back? I know she says awful things about me, and my girlfriend for that matter, where she thinks I'm not paying attention. She'd post tons of awful things in her journals, condemning personal things we do and blaming me for every shred of her misery in the city of Boston. She would never go out, never do anything, sit in her room and blame me for it. And now to top it all off she's sticking it to me where it really hurts, my Wallet.

I'd tried to tell people she wouldn't do this. She wouldn't go this far. She couldn't be THIS irresponsible. So I guess we can call this an official apology to ALL of those people I insulted in her name, bashed in her defense, and fought tooth and nail to defend her against whether she knew it or not.

I'm sorry, all of you.....You were All Right. I was wrong.